I realized I like to type in the middle of night when people are sound asleep and I’m in my own bubble. No, I’m not an introvert, really. I still talk to people whom I feel comfortable sharing with or when I am in the right mood to share.
For the past weeks, I think I was on the verge of breaking down, literally breaking down. I was contemplating running away from everything to somewhere where no one can find me, for a few days at least. And of course, it was a a plan that did not materialize in the end.
Sometimes I do isolate myself from everyone, then after some time I’m back to normal again. This time it was a bit more serious and bounded with negativity. I never imagine I could be this extreme and negative to be honest. I have no idea how, but in the end I manage to pull myself together and stand up again. There’s the saying, no matter how many times you fall, climb up one time more.
My path since young is not as happy go lucky as a lot of my friends would thought. I faced failure before. And because of that, I always felt I can handle stress or failure better than many other people. After struggling with myself for weeks, luckily I did not fail myself this very time. I tell myself this will only make me stronger, both physically and mentally.
Reminded me of this song by Bruno Mars Today My Life Begins
Hope this song will brighten up your day.
I will try to be here more often.
What doesn’t kill you makes you stronger
xoxo,
jocelyn
